Doubt & Fear just ahead

I’ve really enjoyed writing a guide to Nozbe a productivity software application I use every single day. (Think of a paper todo list with a jetpack and a lightsaber Mum!). It has been fun and challenging squeezing it in-between my real life. It’s had it’s ups and downs, having to re-write it half way through as the software was updated to a new updated 2.0 interface made me laugh (I lie, I cried!), but it’s been a goal to ship something (anything?) one day.

It’s almost that day, I’ve just emailed hundreds of subscribers of my Productive Wizard blog, many of whom are Nozbe users. I’ve asked for some volunteers generous enough to give some of their own time to help to apply some polish to my book, finding errors so I can correct them and giving me feedback before I release it to a wider (paying!) audience.

I’m anxious.

You see, I’ve not shared my work with anyone before, sending a small mockup to the CEO of Nozbe to seek his permission in creating a book is the only interaction I’ve had. (He was thrilled thankfully!) The self doubt that now hangs over me is heavier than I imagined. What if no one likes it? It makes no sense? What if it looks terrible on some devices? The layout is bad? What if it’s too basic? Too in-depth? Too long? Too short? What if I’ve missed something really important? 100’s of things rushing through my head of how much people will think it sucks and I look like a fool. We all know the internet can be cruel.

Yet, deep down, if I look deep enough, I find I am proud of what I’ve produced even in its current unpolished form. A book that could help someone organise their life might not excite many people, yet for me, I’d be thrilled if one person got something out of my work.

Deep breath…. almost time to press send….

I think Im going to enjoy The Happiness Advantage book

I’ve just started a book that is set out to convince you that the route to ‘success’ in based upon your happiness and not your happiness is based on your ‘success’

The usual school of thought is something like this;

Get good results at school and you will be happy.

Get a job and earn money you will be happier.

Buy a nice car and you will be even happier.

Earn more money and you will be even even happier.

The book makes you re-think these sort of ideas and suggests that if you are happy already you perform better across all area’s of life and then the results, the job, the car and the money all come to you. The book teaches you how to achieve this somehow, I have not got to that section yet, hopefully it’s not just a ‘Think positive’ exercise!

This is the short 2 minute video that first grabbed my attention.

The book seems to be striking a chord with me so far as I know in periods of my life when I am happy and optimistic life seems to flow that much better. Add to this I’ve started my meditation exercises again and will get my goals down in next week or so I’m really feeling positive to the year ahead.

Lastly, this quote found me somewhere on the internet and has become my 2015 focus.

It’s ok to be Quiet.

Quiet bookQuiet…. its something I have been accused of being on many occasions, if I have something worth saying I will say it, else… I’m happy being quiet.

Having recently read Quiet: The power of introverts in a world that can’t stop talking it has really helped me evaluate things and has actually made me a happier person. That’s not to say I was unhappy for the previous 40 years of my life, rather it’s given me a better perspective on how my own mind works.

‘Given the choice, you’ll devote your social energy to the people you care about most, preferring a glass of wine with a close friend to a party full of strangers. You think before you speak, and relish solitude. You feel energised when focusing deeply on a subject or activity that really interests you. You have an active inner life, and are at your best when you tap into its riches.’

It’s a fascinating book and well worth a read. No time for read the book? The the TED video below from the author gives you a great overview.